Sharing with you my thoughts as I reflect on the unexpected twists and turns over the past 2 months. Pain, grief, sorrow and regret for what will never be, mixed in with simple exhaustion quickly depletes all self-sufficiency.
It has been your prayers that have carried me through this chaotic time.
Reflective thoughts are mere shadows as we live to enjoy this day with little thought to the ‘morrow. How fickle is our flesh when indolence sets in because of ease. God knows how unsteady is our soul when not spirit ruled and how easily led astray our thoughts become when we are not close to Him. So with infinite wisdom He orchestrates His plan; the journey that is ordained for us before the dawn of man.
He twists and makes a winding road that shakes us from our bliss. Our hearts must seek Him for the way that we must walk each day. Leaden skies that threaten rain cause us to pick up the pace. Frantically we begin to run until we stumble and fall down. Bloodied and bruised we try to stand as icy rain pummels down. Strength is gone and we are weak so His grace we now do seek. Loving hands they pick us up and shelter us in this rocky nook.
Ancient stones mark the way that we must cross the coming day. Hidden in a valley low is the place He bids us go. Unknowingly we walk this way not knowing the test that comes this day. Yet with unfeigned faith we step out in trust. Many pilgrims have walked this way and in the silence of this place is where we find true saving grace.
Psalm 119:33-40 (The Message)
GOD, teach me lessons for living
so I can stay the course.
Give me insight so I can do what you tell me—
my whole life one long, obedient response.
Guide me down the road of your commandments;
I love traveling this freeway!
Give me a bent for your words of wisdom,
and not for piling up loot.
Divert my eyes from toys and trinkets,
invigorate me on the pilgrim way.
Affirm your promises to me—
promises made to all who fear you.
Deflect the harsh words of my critics—
but what you say is always so good.
See how hungry I am for your counsel;
preserve my life through your righteous ways!