August 16, 2010

Why do we doubt (Part 1)

Courtesy of Crosswalker
After reading the book of Mark and penning notes in my journal about the kingdom, the power and the glory that is in Christ, I asked myself "Why do I still struggle with doubt?"  Again, these are some ponderings from my heart to yours..

John's Journey of Doubt

John the Baptist, fearless, powerful.  A solitary voice crying out to prepare for Him who was to come.  Then finally:

John couldn’t contain the shout when he saw Jesus coming toward him and said, "Look, the Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world!"  John 1:29
John had the privilege to baptise Jesus as well and to hear God's voice and to see a dove descend from heaven.

This strong voice slowly waivers as his ministry on earth winds down.  Now in this dirty, desolate prison in Antipas he sends his friends to ask of Jesus,

"Are you the one who was to come, or should we expect someone else?" Luke 7:20

Alone in this cold, stone dungeon he sits oppressed and tormented by doubt and fear.  He questions if Jesus is the promised one.  What if he was mistaken? 

Why do we doubt? 

We doubt because we are human.  But I want to answer this from a slightly different angle in this post (and the next):

We doubt because we are in a spiritual battle and the enemy will come at our lowest times to cause torment.

The devil is not omnipresent but his minions study and know what our greatest fear is.  For John it was wondering if he was mistaken in proclaiming Christ as the Messiah.  All his life he had felt called aside and his passion and purpose was to proclaim the coming of the king. 

Fear and doubt is custom made to hit at our deepest core and most treasured values. 

Make no mistake, we are in a battle.  The devil will come when we feel at our lowest ebb to steal that which God has deposited within our soul.

I write these words for myself as well.  Remember, these are words that God gives to me to eat, to mull, to digest...  so we share this journey together.  Encouraging, exhorting one another along the way.  Giving grace and mercy to those who are struggling as they will to us in our times of need.

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